Tuesday, May 12, 2015

I Did It! :)

 2015 - After 17.5 Years of off and on college study, I finally graduated with my Associates degree at SLCC.  I am excited not because of the length of time that it took for me to achieve this awesomeness, but because I did it before the kids! (*Seriously - very excited about that*)
 Not gonna lie when I say that this final semester was probably the hardest semester that I have ever had to endure in my entire life.  I chose to take on a double whammy when it came to course work - Statistics and Spanish.  (Almost like taking two foreign languages if you ask me!)  Also, in the midst of all this it just happens to be "Busy Season" for the real estate market.  Work is super busy right now... (Super busy)
 I could not have accomplished this without my family encouraging me when things got rough.  I could not have moved forward without the support of my professors and friends and colleagues.  I would not have finished had it not been for my personal cheerleaders who completely understood the stress of combining a full time job with a full time parent with a crazy lady who decided that "Sure, Spanish and Stats together won't be so bad!"
 I am so grateful to everyone who helped to see me through this grueling process.  I know that it's crazy to say, but I think that I am going to go back in the fall - I am really not that far from getting my Bachelor's Degree - Not that far at all - And why should I stop now?  Surely I can get it done in the next 15 years?  (That's a two year improvement ya'll!).   Now, what should I do with my 3 month break?

Tuesday, April 7, 2015

3 Weeks Left until Finals

That's right - There are only 3 weeks of school left until Finals!  4 Weeks and 2 days left until I graduate!  I giggle because what should be a 2 year degree has taken me 17 years to achieve - but it's so going to be flippin' worth it! Why?  Actually, really there is only one reason why - it's because I have never actually graduated. You know - walked across a stage to graduate.  Never.  Nope - didn't do the ceremony in High School... and way back when I was a wee lass we never did things like Kindergarten or Elementary School and Jr. High School graduations.  Never.  It just was not heard of. 

So, now that I am all "growed up" I get to embark on this awesomeness.  It's not the dream that I had planned for myself.  I mean, I figured that I would have my Ph.D. by now - but I don't.  Apparently, life gets in the way.  However, I have made it this far, and it is quite the achievement, so I am super proud of myself!  Anyway, that's what is on the brain today - I don't have very much time left before I finish this chapter and move forward with something else.  (And I am just REALLY Excited).  So, short post - but full of awesomeness, like me. :)

Monday, April 6, 2015

The Statistical Analysis of my Statistics Class

There is no such thing as "Simple Statistics" - if you think that then you have not taken a stats class.  I hope that none of you take this the wrong way - but statistics is a sadistic roller coaster ride taught by crazy nerds who can do unbelievably difficult math equations in their heads. It's no wonder that when a student ventures forth to a math lab for additional help they find MAYBE 1 person in the entire lab that has an inkling on what needs to be done in Statistics to help you get through your ridiculous amount of homework.  
The worse part is that you must  do the homework - there is no other way for you to grasp the concept unless you are continually practicing the work that they put forth in front of you.  I mean constantly - like maybe you should have the lessons playing in the background while you are sleeping so that you continue to practice the concepts in your head all day and all night long... UGH - It's almost impossible.  ALMOST - but not quite.  I really thought that this class would be the easier of all my math courses - it's not. In fact, it's much harder - because each of the formulas is so close to the same so you have to really understand what you are doing and what formula you need to use in order to make certain that you are doing the correct math - otherwise, it is all for Naught.  (Notice how I threw that one in there?  Yeah, that word "Naught" is used in statistics too).  

Anyway, I say (With a 95% certainty) that this class is BLAH!  Rotten!  I dislike it so much!  I would say with at least a 50% certainty that other people probably feel exactly the same way about it too.  Statistics is just BLAH!  I'll be so glad in 4 weeks when I am completely done with this class, you have no idea. NONE!

One of my least favorite things -

My dad and I talk quite frequently - and a while ago he and I had a conversation in regards to Facebook.  I always tease him about how he seems to technologically sound but that the one place where everyone shares everything is Facebook and he is not there.  He always asks about the family, wants updates, oh send me some pictures.... blah.  Each time we have this discussion I always respond with, "Well, it's on facebook!  You can see everything there!" - to which he always tells me, "You know, I have known more people who have had feelings hurt and friendships lost and misunderstandings happen because of Facebook.  I will not be using Facebook."  At first I laughed this off.  I felt like he was not being reasonable.  I even chided him, explaining that not everyone was this way. 

I look back and I completely understand what he is talking about.  In fact - Facebook has caused much heartache in my immediate family.  The Misses and I have watched our children as they grow and post things on this social media hub, and most of the time it is joyous - sometimes it isn't.  I know that there are people on Facebook that do things (Sometimes intentionally and sometimes not intentionally) that cause consternation and hurt to another individual.   I recently have found myself part of this horrible circle and I fully intend to have it stop.

Part of me wonders - should I call this person out?  Should I speak up publicly about them?  Should I express how much my feelings were hurt by their actions?  Does it even matter?  The other half of me demands justice and explanations for the behavior!  It wants answers and it wants them now!  Again, does it even matter? 

Looking at all of the evidence I have only one conclusion - that person is just a seriously misguided individual (also, possibly a literal dirt stain) and I don't need them in my life - at all.  I just don't need that kind of hurt and pain and drama - even the silent drama is over-dramatic enough - and I have too many other things that I need to focus on instead of wondering why this person suddenly doesn't like me. (Really, I am pretty certain it must be because they are all jealous of my awesomeness - and my crazy hot body that was recently discovered with my new diet (Thanks Lori)).

Which brings me to another point - all of these people who don't seem to like me.  They all seem to want someone else and not the person that I am  (Even with all of the changes that I HAVE made).  It's not the first time that I have heard that I am not liked - after all, when I took over my position here at my office all I heard for months was "Well so-and-so would ALWAYS do it for me" - to which I have to respond, "Well, there is a reason so-and-so no longer works here and I do."  No, I am not the other person - No, I don't function the way that they did. No, I don't cater to your every whim, whine, and need.  No - You are not the center of my universe and No - I am not going to change who I am because you don't like me.  There are lots of GREAT things about me that you have failed to get to know because you were too busy listening to the liars and made up stories to come and talk to me yourself.  I am one of the most compassionate and giving people that I know and I would do anything for you that were within my power, but I am not a mind reader and you would have to tell me when you are in need and I can spot a user a mile away.  I am a full time employee, full time parent, full time student, and full time person - and I don't have time to worry about you unless you tell me so that I can work it into my schedule. 

Facebook ?  Well, there have been lots of times when my feelings were hurt by family members, and friends alike.  I tend to let things go.  Things like not being told happy Birthday by Every single person on my friends list, or even Happy Mothers Day by family members that should say it to me but say it to everyone else.  (Did you know that I tell the Misses ex's happy birthday and happy mother's day every year? No, really I do - I send them text messages.  WHY you ask?  Because those are important dates and they are important people to my step children and regardless of what they think, they are even important to me.)   I do notice when I get slighted in these areas, but I typically let it roll off of my back because it's not worth it to fight over.  However,  I hope that the personas that feel the need to behave in this manner realize a few things.  1) I am not going to be leaving any time soon - 2) I have the ability to change the beneficiaries on my last will and testament at any time.  and 3) Towanda.

Tuesday, March 17, 2015

Our Roadtrip to Boise for the Rock & Worship Roadshow (Alfie Boe AND the Elizabeth Smart Foundation)

So, I had posted before about our Roadtrip that we would be taking to Boise this weekend - because we love music, the kids needed a trip, and (Really) It was Crowder and Mercy Me! :)  The trip was AWESOME!  And here are some of our pictures from the awesomeness!

 LOL - So, we had a wonderful surprise for the kiddos - they didn't know it but we had already purchased the tickets for the show.  They thought that we had to dash up to Boise so that we could purchase them at the door.


We, seriously - are much craftier than they give us credit for being.  Anyway, we got in and WE WERE IN THE FRONT ROW!  No kidding.  I could see the stubble on David Crowder's face!  Before the show began they did an entire question and answer segment - which was stinkin' awesome! :)  And then the show finally began.  .   .

I don't necessarily know if I had a very favorite act.  I mean, they were all pretty amazing by their own right.  Jamie Grace - funny as heck.   Group 1 Crew - surprisingly fun to watch.  Jon and Valerie Guerra - SO awesome.  I Am They - She loves to clap.  Matt Maher - better live than on video. . .
 Really, the entire concert had a different feel to it.  There were many prayers said - uplifting music played - and money going to charities.  The whole concert was amazing.  Crowder was awesome!  He had a few technical difficulties, but his stage hand was super awesome and got things fixed - and David Crowder didn't miss a beat at all - he just kept on playin' like there wasn't a problem at all.
 Seriously - Jammin'.
 His song (which I Have posted before) Come as you are, was probably only 1 of 2 that brought tears to my eyes.  He just sings it with such heart, you can feel the words.  If you don't feel them then you must not have a heart. (Kidding) (no, maybe I am not.) ((Dangit, go listen to it again and cry!))
 Then there was MercyMe - his testimony was amazing to hear.  And it was even better that there was a realization that just because you have a testimony does not mean that it stops there.  The understanding that you gain as you continue to build your relationship with your heavenly father on this earth is amazing - and it's what gets this guy through the day.  (As it should be what gets us all through the day).
 So, all together the RWRS15 was truly an experience like none other that we have been to as a family. (And we have gone to many concerts as a family).  :)

 Then we had to book it out of Idaho for a soccer game on Saturday (Which I am proud to announce was against DFC in Indoor - that's Nathan's Team) and Boca won. So, the weekend was going pretty strong for our family - lots of positives.  Little did the children know that we had other surprises in store for them. We had told them that we were going to visit grandma Healey this weekend too (After all , it was a road trip - right?)

But little did they know that we would make a stop in Provo to see... none other than Alfie Boe!  For another Charity Concert (The Elizabeth Smart Foundation and Operation underground Railroad)  Oh sure, D-man was a little disappointed that we weren't going to grandma's house, but he immediately got over it as we watched many of the "Stars of Utah" perform.  Gentri was AWESOME!  And Alfie?  AMAZING as well!  :)  The roadtrip weekend was a phenomenal success!  If you don't have the following albums (or if you have not upgraded your musical choices - might I suggest the following bands:
Alfie Boe
Mercy Me
Jamie Grace
Group 1 Crew
Jon Guerra
I Am They
Tedashii (If you like Hip Hop - he was pretty sweet)
Matt Maher
Kendra Lowe
Jenny Oaks Baker and finally

Enjoy the new upgraded playlist that I am putting out there for you - trust me - you'll be feeling uplifted in no time. :)

Monday, March 16, 2015

The Recent Weather in Utah

The recent weather in Utah has left much to be desired.  I mean, seriously - One day I am out to take my daily walks, and the next day I am bundled up like a blizzard is comin' in.  In fact, just a little over 2 weeks ago this was the scene in the same day - same hour - 20 miles between locations:

The first shot was at my house, the next shot was at school in Salt Lake - One place covered in lovely snow (Which I have MISSED ALL DANG WINTER LONG) and the other, hardly a sprinkle.  It has been like this ALL dang Winter Long!

So, today is the first day of Spring - and it has already been fairly warm outside... but this morning there was (Once again) frost on the windshield of my car!  Oh why, oh why, won't the weather just make up its mind so that I can move on with things!  I would either like to go capri shopping or buy a parka - but not have to wear both in the same day.  I mean, I feel the need for flip flops and yet, I can't put them on for fear of frostbite in March!

The Land of the "Greatest Snow on Earth" didn't have much of it this winter - and that really sucked - but it doesn't need to pile it all on now that the rest of us are getting ready for spring - know what I mean?  And on a side note - isn't my home just the most adorable winter palace?  I love my house. :) Anyway - Ya'll have a great week!

Happy Birthday to you - Dad!

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This year, my family got together to have a Birthday Party for my dad - to celebrate his 65th birthday.  Here is a book that we made for him to celebrate!  We hope that you had a very happy birthday Dad!

Sunday, March 8, 2015

I love to see the Temple - I went there just last night...

This is a picture that I took last night after my session at the temple - is't it beautiful. I haven't been to the temple in some time, but it was my goal this year to try to make it at least once a month - because the Misses was out of town for the day, I worked hard all day on my homework (and the house) and I rewarded myself with some quiet time at the Ogden Temple.

It Truly is beautiful in there, and when I finally got to the Celestial room I remembered what D-man had said to me on our walk through the Open House.  He said, "Mom!  I never want to leave this place!"  As I sat there last night trying to get my bearings and struggling with the cacophony of feelings that I have been experiencing over the last few weeks, it was nothing short of apparent that he was right.  The feelings that are present in this room of solitude are such that I did not want to leave.  I love to see the temple - I love the way that I feel when I am there - I love the focus that It brings to me and the comfort that is present.

So, though D-man doesn't read my blob, I would still like to thank him for his words that reflected to me last night - "I never want to leave this place".

Sunday, March 1, 2015

Feeling like a Whiner today - so, I am going to whine here.

Ok- so this is not really me... but if you could put a face to my wining rant today, this is what (I personally think) I would look like.

I have a problem (Or so I feel that it's a problem).  It's an issue that many married women experience,.., and some get through it while others don't.  I am right in the middle - some days I get through it, and other days I would rather sit here and just whine about it.

Apparently, my "Misses" is a boy.  A kid?  A young "Misses" at heart?  I don't know... but the point of it really is that sometimes his emotional level, and attention span, seem to rival that of a 13 year old.  Most of the time I am alright with it - I just continue to go on doing the things that I need to do and I work around him.  But sometimes, sometimes I wonder exactly what I have gotten myself into.

So, then there come days like today when I just want to sit and whine about it.  I feel overwhelmed - I feel like I am doing so many things - (School, work, kids, house cleaning, bills - the list continues).  and then I look and see that he has just succeeded in winning another (In my mind) pointless video game.  I think to myself, "There are so many things to do around the house - there are so many thing that you could be doing with your time instead of THAT".  I think, "Ugh - our vehicles are not registered and he can't take the time to take care of it?  Just one more thing that I will have to put on my plate and handle."  All the while he is going through a series of emotions about whether or not a level didn't have the right kind of guns or ammo to pick up.  

As I hear a string of expletives range from his mouth I question things about my choices.  As I move through this life by myself I question my choices.  I go to activities alone, I go to church (2/3 of the time) alone, I hang out with friends, alone.  I didn't get married to be alone, but the longer that I go the more that it feels that way.  I am not always alone - but it just seems that he would rather focus his time, not on building relationships and memories, but winning the next Duke Nukem.  

Sometimes, it feels like (When things have to get done) that it's such a chore for him.  If he works in the yard for 3 hours, then he will reward himself by doing nothing the rest of the day.  He says "It's my day off! I don't want to have to do all of this stuff!  I need a break!  I need rest and relaxation!"  and I think, "Well, 2 hours of R&R should be sufficient" (Mostly because that's all I ever seem to get sometimes - while he's resting, I am finishing up what was left to get done.).  I get a sense of satisfaction when things are completed that I do not get otherwise, and yet he seems to be completely opposite.  

When he does work, he does a fabulous job - but if he is distracted by games, tv's, movies, or his phone - well - good luck getting anything else done.  (at least without a begrudging attitude.)

Now, I know that I am not alone - and this is not to say that he does not help out - or that he doesn't get anything at all done.  It's just me whining about the circumstances of THIS particular day.  (Ok, and a few others before it.)  

Really, the overall issue within this rant is that one line about relationships and how I did not get married to be alone.  I see the problem - I see the contributing factors - and I hate them all.  Doesn't it sound so needy, though, to say "Hi, sir, you married me... and it would be really nice if this were a partnership where I wasn't alone."  It's not that I am not independent - I am.  But sometimes it would be so nice to have someone that would want to go and do things - without complaint.  (We won't even mention how dreadful bowling is... seriously, it's just a game.  No need to jump off of the deep end here.)  Anyway, it's not always like this, but some days I am just a serious whiner.  I will finish what I need to do and move forward - but it's nice to have a place where I can get my rant out there in the world.  Sometimes, that's all that is needed.

Saturday, February 21, 2015

Color Me Rad - 2015 - Agony of De Feet

This will be our 3rd year of doing "Color me Rad" - with all of it's rad-a-liciousness.   Last year was flippin' awesome - but this year is going to be even better than last year because they have added 4 extra color stations - WHAT?  8  places to get blasted with deliciously awesome color?  Say WHAT?

Anyway, I can't even express how much fun this Race has been for us in the past.  I am not a runner - I am more of a run, walk, walk, walk, jog, walk, walk, walk, mosey type.  (Mostly because I was so out of shape in the past that there is nothing else that I could do - just not a runner guys.)  But, that does not mean that I don't love to participate!  So, that's what we are doing again!  

If you want to come down and join with my team - we are "Agony of De Feet" - (Awesome, right?)  And we won't judge if you shuffle along.  Promise.  I will be shufflin' right there with you!

Friday, February 20, 2015

Oh Yeah - Goin' to Boise in a month!

 I love Music - ALL KINDS of music!!  I love the kind of music that I can jam out to in the car, or sing really loudly to when I am cleaning my house.  I love the kind that picks me up and makes me feel good.  I listen to it all!

So, it's not unusual that I also love "Christian Rock" - I mean - MercyMe is AMAZING.  I know that you have all heard "I can only Imagine" and "Homesick".   These songs touch me.  MercyMe does not tour that often - mostly because these guys are family guys and the touring thing is not really part of what they do. (They don't like being away from family).  So, many years ago when I really started to  love their music, I just resigned myself to never being able to see them in concert.  I get it - that's not their gig.  But they are coming with the roadshow this year! (EEEP!)  And so close to Utah?  OK. I know Boise is not THAT close - but it is pretty close.  So, we got tickets to drive up and see the show. :)  YAY!  If you still need a little recollection of who they are, here's their video:

Then - they decide to bring along a few others that I have been getting to know.  Jamie grace is fun - really fun - to sing to.  And Matt Maher has some stinkin' good tunes as well.

I really have to thank the Misses, because he's the one that really got me listening to the next group - Crowder. :)  I know that the guy looks like he is from Duck Dynasty - but I promise, he's got a great sound.  And his music is just so moving.

So, I hope that you enjoy the song as much as I have - and if you get a chance to go and see this awesome group, don't knock it because it's not mainstream pop music.  They are truly awesome!

Thursday, February 19, 2015

Ode to my Friend - My Ben

Benjamin Barker - Obituary

This is my Friend - Ben.

Ben passed away in January.

Ben took his own life.

I was not as close to Ben as I would have liked to be.

Every time I saw him though, it was as if time had not passed.

Ben was warm, and welcoming, and a good person.

Ben introduced me to several online games (Which I promptly got addicted to).

Ben had a beautiful son with my sister.

Ben made my late work nights at Famous Dave's endurable and fun.

I am so sad that he is gone.

Even though we did not talk much, I am sad that he found himself in a place where he felt that he had to take his own life.

We will miss you terribly, Ben. Until we meet again.

Wednesday, February 18, 2015

I love Celebrity Jeopardy

Celebrity Jeopardy - SNL 40th Anniversary Special by cilgintv

Most don't know this about me - but I LOVE Celebrity Jeopardy.  Loved it then, love it now - and I was so glad that they did one for the anniversary of SNL. :)  So, to share this awesomeness I am attaching the link for all.  Enjoy!

Monday, February 9, 2015

Why I haven't updated my pictures - WHY?!?

OK - Ok.  For all of you whiners out there ( YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE ;) and so do i)  Just a quick note as to why I have not updated my pictures on the blob.  The reason is actually really simple and kind of silly . I have a lovely Kadoodle.  Miss Kadoodle has braces on her teeth right now, and she made me promise that I would not update our family pictures until the braces came off of her faces. (LOL - see what I did just there?).

Now, I am a lady of my word - I say no family pictures until she gets those things out of her mouth and she is feeling confident about her smile once again.  I will probably have to do this again when D-Man gets his braces, but I don't really think so.  I don't think that boys are nearly as vain as girls are.  Anyway, true to form, we have not had any family pictures taken since she got her braces on.

No kidding!  Seriously, my sister is a photographer and every time she comes over to my house she tells me that I need to update my family photographs.  Um. No.  I made a promise and I refuse to update anything until the young lady doesn't have metal mouth anymore.  :)

But guess what - we have taken selfies! BWAHAHAH! :)
(See how she cut it off just there)  I have another one or two (though) where I get a full shot... like this one!
See!  Now that is a lovely girl right thar' - with her long har'!  And even though she has braces and she is OK with taking regular pictures, she is still not quite OK with family photos.  So, there you all have it - don't you worry - as soon as it happens I am scheduling an appointment and getting the portraits updated and the blob updated and everything - because the other kids have grown... and grown and grown and grown... so it would really be a great thing to get more recent pictures of everyone, right?  HERE'S TO STRAIGHT TEETH!